What it’s like to have just gone no-contact with your abusive mother and said no to the other abusers in your life after waking up to the fact that you have Narcissistic Abuse Syndrome during your “mid-life crisis,” losing everything, AND then have to deal with living in a pandemic! I am a 40-year-old woman […]
It does get better when I put on videos of tai chi, energy medicine, self-healing physically, self-massage, facials, etc. Those are an important new addition to each of my days as I dive deep into self-healing, learning who I am without being codependent with others, and raising myself up out of self-misery, as I take my power back!
This is by no means the end of the road. I have not reached some place of enlightenment because we are not meant to reach enlightenment while we are a 3D human. This is only the beginning of bringing heaven to earth through my own heart and finally beginning the discovery of my true power within. It’s about experiencing my own divinity within me, and discovering and learning what authenticity means to me, for my being, not one else’s.
It’s not your fault for having these feelings. You are still being controlled by your mother within. Her voice is so ingrained in your being that her essence is still controlling you. Now that you have no other mother-figure outside of yourself to project that onto and to continue receiving that abuse from outside of you, even though you try like hell to keep finding these women, she is still the default setting within you…