What it’s like to have just gone no-contact with your abusive mother and said no to the other abusers in your life after waking up to the fact that you have Narcissistic Abuse Syndrome during your “mid-life crisis,” losing everything, AND then have to deal with living in a pandemic! I am a 40-year-old woman […]
“Activations are exactly that: activations! They are energy that activates your field and your cellular structure to awaken to anywhere love is not or has not been living. They shake up the dense particles within you and your consciousness so that they can be healed and transmuted.”
“Receiving Distance Reiki helps you get a glimpse into the world of the eternal, the world of peace, the world of truth beyond the masks of the 3D. Receiving Distance Reiki allows you to take a step closer to genuine care for the planet, genuine belief in the rightness of nature and the natural rhythms of Earth.”
This unknown and watery world some of us have chosen to enter has been a massive dimensional shift. It feels as though we have stepped into the consciousness of the heart, where we have been working to arrive at, and yet it feels as foreign as another planet….
It does get better when I put on videos of tai chi, energy medicine, self-healing physically, self-massage, facials, etc. Those are an important new addition to each of my days as I dive deep into self-healing, learning who I am without being codependent with others, and raising myself up out of self-misery, as I take my power back!
This is by no means the end of the road. I have not reached some place of enlightenment because we are not meant to reach enlightenment while we are a 3D human. This is only the beginning of bringing heaven to earth through my own heart and finally beginning the discovery of my true power within. It’s about experiencing my own divinity within me, and discovering and learning what authenticity means to me, for my being, not one else’s.
Today’s energy can be considered a surge of creative energy and high-vibration light. Creative energy can be mistakenly registered as anxiety when you don’t know how to channel it. You may be judging your restlessness in a negative light, when it’s probably that you are just afraid of taking the leap into channeling it or you’re still listening to your Inner Punisher’s voice telling you that you’re not creative or athletic. You might be like myself, making excuses for not using it, such as, it’s too cold out, I’m too tired, or there’s just toooooo many choices, I don’t know where to start!
Then I got to thinking, well, if I no longer want this list of things in my life and I am no longer going to tolerate such and such, what is it that I DO want and what WILL I tolerate?
I became so centered, so quiet. And my Inner Being/Higher Self/That-Voice-Of-Knowing-Within “spoke” inside me through feeling/sentiment, with an authority I didn’t deny, couldn’t deny. I translated it into English within, as this form of my truest essence is vibrating as an American in the 21st century timeline, but it is actually timeless, and exists without form throughout all of everything…
It’s not your fault for having these feelings. You are still being controlled by your mother within. Her voice is so ingrained in your being that her essence is still controlling you. Now that you have no other mother-figure outside of yourself to project that onto and to continue receiving that abuse from outside of you, even though you try like hell to keep finding these women, she is still the default setting within you…