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There’s a deadness in the air today. It’s as if the motors have been shut off, the propulsion forward has ended, and now there’s nothingness. To a part of us, it can feel like we are dying, or perhaps like we’re already dead, leaving us with the false illusion that there is no hope for the future.

For those of us who live in the present after years and years of clearing old and heavy baggage, physically, emotionally, mentally, spiritually, eternally, multidimensionally, we are only able to feel the present, as if it is everything. We feel it fully, encompassed in totality by it. We feel its edges, its nuances, its weight, its pressure, its color. We can feel its potential and its darkness.

There’s a level of done-ness. There’s no more need to try to clear more baggage. There’s a need to rest in exactly-as-you-are-ness; to claim your steadiness in this unknown-ness.

Today, there is a nowhere-ness. There is an imminent death arriving at our doorstep. For some that will be actual death around them. For others it will be death trying to speak to them and relay messages of healing and love through the veils. And for others it will be the death of a way of being, existing, living. Their layers of previous personalities and manners of responding to the illusion of the 3D world will be laid to rest, with or without consent.

For those of us who no longer deny the inner world of feeling and sensing, it’s best for us to go inward; to sit in quiet meditative states or even to sleep. Pick your best method of shutting off the external world, be it in nature or in quiet music. Trying to create momentum or forcing your way to answers will only lead to disappointment and frustration.

There are parts of you who are going to fight like hell to get you moving, to convince you that you must be productive or you’re going to create more problems around you. They are going to be scratching at your inner walls to try to get out. So for some, they’ll need an outlet, like vigorous exercise, which seems contradictory.

It’s because this is also a time of extreme polarities and duality. Where we may be deeply entrenched in a deathing process, there is also an uptick of new energy. This creative energy surging at the same time as death is occurring is seeking to find a balance within your being. They are different sides of the same tsunami coin.

This is a fantastic time to open up to your creative side, to do the kind of art or music project that touches your soul. This is a time where you can touch and feel and embrace your soul. Your soul has greater access to your world and you are more open to being able to translate its essence into the 3D. Sometimes you will create through the tears. Sometimes pure access to the soul is disguised as grief because we have been separated from it for so long, it feels good to come home. And sometimes it’s so beautiful it can only be expressed through tears. Once again, grief/joy being sides of the same heart coin.


At times it can feel as though there is only a tiny row boat managing the choppy waves of an entire ocean of grief and you are unsure of where it is you are. You’ve been fed the story of “the little lifeboat” over and over and you’re sick of trying to “save yourself” by trying to get to that lifeboat. Perhaps you’re done with that story and now you’ve taken pride in being that incredibly powerful and occasionally damaging sea of emotion. Maybe you’re at the bottom of the abyss feeling overwhelmed. And yet, today, you are none of them and you are all of them.

There is a part of you in an air bubble at the bottom of that ocean, sitting in lotus position, not choosing “to be” any of them. And this feels no longer like a human thing. It is outside the human thing.

It is silence. It is holding space for all of the stories while learning to completely detach from them and let them go.

It comes to my attention that this is aligned with the Samsara cycle, explained briefly here by Wikipedia:

Saṃsāra (Sanskrit, Pali; also samsara) in Buddhism is the beginningless cycle of repeated birth, mundane existence and dying again.[1] Samsara is considered to be dukkha, unsatisfactory and painful,[2] perpetuated by desire and avidya (ignorance), and the resulting karma.[3][4][5]

Rebirths occur in six realms of existence, namely three good realms (heavenly, demi-god, human) and three evil realms (animal, ghosts, hellish).[note 1] Samsara ends if a person attains nirvana,[note 2] the “blowing out” of the desires and the gaining of true insight into impermanence and non-self reality

It can feel lonely. It might feel absolutely unbearable. And yet you remain in the holding space.

Fighting this would be futile. The only thing you can do with any conviction, is breathe.

See more ways to empower yourself during times of uncertainty here: Three Ways to Empower Yourself and Lift Your Vibration

Many blessings sent to you,

~Devon TwoWolves StarWalker (Heart Star)

© 5.18.20

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Published by Devon Heart Star

Spiritual, Health & Life Coach, Shamanic Minister, Global Soul Consultant, Multidimensional Massage Therapist/Bodyworker, Reiki Mystic, StarWalker Poet, 5D Spirit-preneur in constant upgrades, Twin Flame Heart Star merging the As Above, So Below, As Within, So Without

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